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Mar. 20th, 2009 | 10:34 pm

urgh. go figure. i'm so fucking sick its not funny. *dies slowly in bed*

there went all my plans, eh? le sigh.

at least all this down time that i haven't been passed out for has led me to compile a delicious $186 wishlist at babeland. hopefully i'll get some takers from a post i made elsewhere. ~grin~

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Mar. 17th, 2009 | 12:50 am

fuckin' eh. leave it to a fucked up person like me to pull this stuff.

here i have a whole freakin' week to myself with sole occupancy of my room... and i'm not horny. i try to get off a few times a day and take advantage of my time alone, but nothings doing the trick right now. even my tried and true piss vids take a long time to J/O to. this has never happened to me before, and frankly i'm a bit worried. i mean c'mon, wtf?

*sigh*

life. so unpredictable.

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Mar. 13th, 2009 | 12:34 am

i just got off with a plug in my ass, my tantus in my pussy, and a vibe on my clit while watching a woman get dildogged by a big great dane... after gorging myself on delicious diaper pissing/pooping vids. mmmmm.

i showered (i hadn't since yesterday around noon) and tossed my stuff in the laundry. now i'm in a triple layer cloth diaper with a pair of briefs for a cover, my leakmaster plastic pants, and then another pair of briefs to keep the bulk down under my regular PJs. i'm cooking up some oatmeal to put a 'load' in my diapers since i can't have the smell of a genuine mess lingering around me, plus i dont have to go. so soon i'll be clad in scent-free messy and wet cloth diapers. best way to do the laundry? I THINK SO!

*grin*

EDIT: i made a 'dry' load of oatmeal, one that's pretty much solid so it feels like a really good, healthy load. its not slimy like some of the 'wetter' loads i've made in the past, which is great fun but not very practical for going around doing chores. mmm. pity i dont get warmer water, the load is colder than it should be. XD

MORE EDIT: mrrrr, i'm lovin' it. i've been in this squishy, mess-filled diaper since around midnight and i'm goin' strong. i haven't had much piss to give, but i've been drinking quite a bit so hopefully that'll pick up. i got my laundry with the bulge in my pants and no one said a thing. i pissed in the laundry room, on the walk back to my room, and once in front of my door. they were all little spurts but it was nice.
my load got hard and cold after a while, so about a half hour ago i added a few tablespoons of hot water (finally... NOW it comes back on...) to the back and that really got things nice and mushy again, plus warm.
i folded my laundry with my ass/back to my room mate who is playing halo live, had he looked over and really studied my ass i'm sure he'd have noticed that i had quite a lump hanging in my PJs. now horribly dirty of me. XD
anywho, since i have to get up at 8 tomorrow morning i'm just going to sleep in what i have on, including my diaper and my mess. this will be... *drumroll please*...
the VERY FIRST TIME i've ever slept in a diaper!! and not only is it a diaper, its full of my piss and a delicious load of oatmeal mess. hopefully the water i've drunk will kick in as i lay down and i can pee myself in bed (also something i've always wanted to do).
before i actually head to bed i'll add some more hot water to the oatmeal to re-activate it.

to be honest, since i just took a shower i dont think i'll take another one tomorrow. chances are i'll wake up, piss myself in bed, get up, take off my 'getup', and put on just the briefs outside the plastic pants over what is left on my ass of the oatmeal... then just head to work at 9. *grin again*

peace, y'all!

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Feb. 27th, 2009 | 10:25 pm

earlier i was sitting around in a doubled-up goodnite, soaked thru with my piss-load and with about a half cup of oatmeal in the back as shit substitute, since i didn't have anything to poop at the time. i decided "hey, i really want to shit my diapers... hmm". so i went to kroger and picked up a bunch of bananas and some plain yogurt.

now i'm sitting on a whopping 2 cups of yogurt/water enema cocktail as well as two whole bananas. surprisingly i'm not as 'full' as i felt the last time i tried this, which is very strange. but i have a diaper on because i know i'm leaking a bit of yogurt/water enema, since i did about a cup before the first banana, a cup between, and a cup afterwords and that last one is hard to keep clenching on.
since the bananas are green i want to keep them in for quite a while until they soften and get more mooshy (plus warm up), the last time i did this i was cramping so badly i shat them out pretty quickly and ended up with pretty much the same thing i put in, even still cold in the middle.
so i'm going to try to watch a movie. i was going to drive out to the beach (half hour away) and fill my diaper there, but this one is gonna be a big load so i want to film it so everybody can appreciate a good self-stuffing and diaper filling.

mmm, i love my life.

i started my official count-down at 10:25. i'm gonna wait till 11 at the earliest before completely filling my diapers.

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Feb. 26th, 2009 | 02:01 pm

back into the full swing of my fetish(es) after a great chat last nite. i'm wearing a goodnite to work/class today, i relieved most of my bladder in the bathroom before putting it on so it'll last a while. i forgot how good it felt to just... be diapered.

*grin*

EDIT: i peed a little in it before i left to work, and then of course HAD to get out my vibrator and get off quickly. for the first time i didn't feel the immediate compulsion to take it off after orgasm, which is something i've been working on lately. while working in the computer lab i'd let out spurts of my hot piss. it felt so good (plus i never had to get up!). when i got home i let out a forcefull piss into the thirsty padding and saturated it, then added another cup of water down the front before getting out my vibe again and getting off a second time in the same diaper. i then had to take a shower, sadly... but it was still really, really fun!

i'd love to be diapered right now, but i have to go somewhere in an hour and i dont want to have to shower again today. that's the only sucky part about diapers... i dont like smelling like one unless i'm playing by myself.

so instead i've pumped my clit nice and hard and am getting off on xtube vids of diapers. I LOVE LIFE!

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Feb. 21st, 2009 | 02:09 pm

found a really solid hookup that looks amazingly hot and LOVES trannies. he's got a pretty girthy cock, though, so i'm gonna have to do some re-training on the ol' ass over the next few days. this may finally compel me to actually buy an enema kit so i can clean out, since we're making an amateur film out of the shebang and its a lot easier to appeal to an audience with a clean hole than to the select audience who appreciates a dirty one.

we talked out the scenario and what exactly we want to get into, and this is what we came up with:
i'm going to go over to meet him in a diaper with a desperate bladder full of piss and a dildo in my ass loosening me up. he'll hold too in preparation. then its off with our clothes in the hotel room and on with the cameras. i'll start squirting in my diaper occasionally while we play a bit and when he's ready we'll set up the shots and he'll stick his cock down the front and back of my diaper and fill it with his own piss while i do the same. hopefully we get leaks onto the carpet or bedspread from the 2 full bladder-fulls, depending on where we decide to film (depends on the hotel we choose).
he's really into sucking ftm clit, so once we've fucked around in the diaper a bit i'm going to quickly towel off (but not rinse, so he gets the taste of my piss) and he's going to suck me off. then we switch and i give him his blowjob, but i dont let him cum.
then basically i strap on a series of bigger and bigger cocks and fuck him good (but again not allowing him to cum) before we switch off and i get pounded in the ass until he shoots his load.

we talked about putting on a new diaper for me to go home in since my ass will be loose and there's always that after-sex piss urge, but i know i get that little 'downer' feeling after i get off on kinky stuff so i'm not sure if that'll end up happening. but i'll come prepared for it just in case. i'm thinking of also bringing my clit pump, just so that he gets an extra large treat to suck.

we're planning on meeting later in the week or next, and i'm so fucking excited. i have to shave, though, which i hate because it leaves those little razor bumps. *cry* but for the hot fuck i'm gonna get out of it i really cant complain.
videos will be up on xtube once we're done and i've spliced/edited them together a bit. i LOVE making video, i love knowing that there are folks somewhere in the world who are cumming just by looking at me. i'm a dirty whore like that. i like the anonymity, though... i would hate to be recognized in public but just LOVE the online fame.
i've often wondered about 'going mainstream' and getting paid for it, but they usually want you to expose your face in that sort of play and i'm not comfortable with that. i'd much rather be 'hoodboy' and just be known for that.

see, now, damn... the problem with this hookup is that every damn time i think about it i get soaked. i'm sick of taking 3 showers a day so i dont smell like sex. *d'oh*

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Feb. 20th, 2009 | 10:34 pm

also, i'm fucking SOAKED in my own juices right now just from browsing around the internet reading and looking at amazingly hot things that i actually have a damp spot on my jeans. fuck the fact that my room mate is playing halo with friends over, i want to jack off NOW, damnit.

i'm gonna go into the bathroom and pump up my clit a bit, just to make it even worse. it'll be torture. if i was wearing proper underwear and not just boxers (and if my other supplies weren't so inaccessible from where i'm currently sitting) i'd totally toss in a dildo too and sit on it until i can allow myself to cum.

mrr.

EDIT: i need to piss like a motherfucker, so i went to the bathroom. but instead of allowing myself to pee i instead pumped my clit and popped in my tantus dildo to slide around and drive me fucking nuts while i'm sitting here watching guys shit their diapers and piss them full and thinking about how soon that'll be me getting my diapers filled by a hot cock, spurting long-held piss into my thirsty disposable thats hot and slick. or the sound of some sick fuck masturbating and groaning as i shit a hot load of poop into panties for him to see as he films it, reaching out to touch it and smash it around while my pussy drips cum everywhere in anticipation of the hard fucking i'll get when he's hard and ready to pound me. i'm just so fucking horny right now.
luckily my roomie just referred to 'heading out to get pizza' with his buddies. hopefully they go somewhere far away so i can jack off in peace and finally cum.
fuckin' aye, guys... if only i had a dog cock in my ass right now that'd just complete my day. *groan*

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Feb. 20th, 2009 | 09:00 pm

wow, i cant believe what a response i got with my kink-specific craigslist ad!

damn. i have hookup possibilities with like, 15 people! two really capture my interest. fucking hot. *melts*

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Feb. 19th, 2009 | 01:21 am

put an ad out on craigslist to see if anyone wants to piss in my diaper while i'm wearing it, among other things. i also expressed an interest in enemas, general piss play, and ending it all off with being fucked hard in the ass. i need to be pounded again. i guess one hookup was all it took to get me hooked on cock, eh?

i wish my room mate would get his ass to bed so i could get to jacking off. seriously. I NEED TO.

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Feb. 6th, 2009 | 10:32 pm

currently wearing 6 pairs of cloth diapers, 4 tri-folded and 2 open. they're under a pair of white briefs and leak-master plastic pants.
i'm gonna tank up for one hell of an evening, ladies and gents...

i love the feeling of sitting my full ass on a chair, with all that delicious diaper bulk between my legs forcing them apart, thirsty and waiting. the other day i had my buttplug in for quite a while and loved that too. so a full ass sitting on a full diaper is akin to GODLY ecstacy. add a cock in my pussy and a vibe on my clit and i've just had the best evening ever!

:D

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